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CtAndy's Random Thoughts and Writings

Here is a collection of my various writings. They range from the erotic to the philosophical. I have a variety of writings on other platforms that I will be transferring over here in the near future.

Fair warning, my erotic writing isn't necessarily to everyone's taste so if you don't appreciate it please feel free to scroll on by. I am always happy to receive constructive criticism and engage in intelligent and productive conversation, but I'm not interested in fighting with random people on the internet. Please take any such sentiment elsewhere.

I do hope that those that do indulge in my writings do enjoy them and just maybe one of them might open up your mind to something new.
23 hours ago. May 15, 2024 at 4:10 PM

There isn't quite anything that is as soothing when coming down with a cold or being sick a fresh raw honey in a hot drink.

Now I'm taking straight from the bees fresh, not that artificial corn syrup infused shit you buy at the grocery store. That's shits horrible for you.

This is part of the reason why we raise bees and do our own honey. It really is one of nature's super foods. You should look into it if you never have.

4 days ago. May 11, 2024 at 9:49 PM

There is a special kind of boredom that one experiences when living long distance from your partner, especially when going from living together to then living apart. 

At first you get the whole feeling of freedom being able to do what you want, when you want, and how you want. After a while though, it starts to feel like you are kind of lost almost. You have played all the video games, watched the shows, read some books, but after a while things just start feeling kinda empty.

Along with that, for those of us that have that pesky need for physical touch, makes the word longing not exactly cover the whole that takes a place inside you. You look forward to the short snippets of time that you get to have with your partner, but those only happen every couple of months. You even search for new partners and interact with all sorts of people who ultimately end up more disappointing than anything else. Most people are disappointing, and underwhelming, and the vast majority of the time are entirely dishonest. 

So what's left, well boredom and a longing for the feeling of belonging again. Another day ticks by slowly. At least we know it won't last forever. Or hopefully not.

1 week ago. May 3, 2024 at 6:23 PM

Where would you recommend for someone new to try and connect with like minded people? Where do you look for kinky friends, partners, education, or interests other than here? Where have you had the most success finding people with similar interests? What is the current go to place to find people to play with? Where do you look?

2 weeks ago. April 27, 2024 at 3:40 PM

Something that I really enjoy but havent had much opportunity to do as of late is erotic hypnosis. I've been missing it lately and I would really love to do a session, or a few, if the right person were to come along. I'm particularly fond of trigger play including forced orgasms or orgasms on command, edging and orgasm denial, sensation play, voyeurism, and a wide variety of other things.

I have 7 years experience as a Tist, looking for a cis female, around my age or younger, preferable slim or athletic in build, and most importantly an open minded and willing subject.

I'm more than happy to discuss any details of what I would like prior to agreement to do a session. Informed consent is particularly important to me. The goal is to have the subject enjoy the session as much as I do, the last thing I want is for someone to regret something after the fact. DM if you have any questions or you might have interest.

I'm also more than open to general questions and discussion on the topic. Being that it isn't the most common of kinks, I know that is often considered some kind of mystical taboo that most people know very little about. I would be more than happy to chat with anyone or answer questions in general in the comments so anyone and everyone can learn if they are interested.

Other than that, no matter what else is going on in the world, I hope you all have a phenomenal day.

2 weeks ago. April 25, 2024 at 9:53 PM

What are your thoughts?

Love it?

Hate it?

Love to hate it?

Completely neutral? 

What do you like, want, and enjoy about this sort of play? 

For those that don't like it, why and what would you prefer instead?

3 weeks ago. April 23, 2024 at 12:41 PM

Time and time again this search ends in nothing but disappointment. Hours of conversation that gives the impression that you have actually found someone that fits what you want and are looking for. Deep and thought out responses and an smashing amazing conversation. 

You told yourself not to, but that little hope thing started to stir in the back of your mind and you didn't help but look forward to the next message waiting to continue the conversation but also restraining yourself because this person wants to go slow. 

Then you wake up in the morning and go to check your messages. Nothing from her since early last night which was kind of unexpected, but she said she would be busy. Click in her message to say good morning. 

"You can't respond to this conversation because this person has deactivated their account, you've blocked them, they've blocked you, or they are on a timeout." IYKYK

No message, no explanation, just nothing. And despite your logical fucking brain, there is a little part that says, "Well maybe she got reported by some ass hat that she told go fuck off." But you also know that's likely not the truth. 

I would rather have someone tell me to fuck off to my face and tell me why than have someone ghost and be left to wonder. If you've ever ghosted anyone in a situation like this, FUCK YOU. 

That is all.

4 weeks ago. April 17, 2024 at 12:08 AM

Im starting to think these two things are as rare as shoulds and mights. Rumored to be true and people swear that they have witnessed them but I've never seen one.

Am I the odd one out here? Am I the only one that has a days worth of great conversation only to be met with silence afterwards? Not so much as an excuse, just crickets. If people are only looking for a one time casual convo or whatever why is it so hard for them to say that when asked?

I dunno, maybe I'm just doing it wrong. That's probably it right?

1 month ago. April 10, 2024 at 10:15 PM

Or is it all in vein and just a giant waste of time and energy? I'm more and more inclined to believe the latter.

1 month ago. March 25, 2024 at 10:32 PM

Clean, dirty, upside down or sideways, tell me something funny.

If you're too shy feel free to send via DM.

I could use a few laughs today and I'm sure other people could too.

2 months ago. March 10, 2024 at 11:35 PM

There are times where I experience extreme high where I'm very active and involved on here and other places. During these times I enjoy writing and write quite often. I also am quite socialble and enjoy interacting with people.

Other times, and typically more often, there are regular and deep lows. When these come around and honestly don't feel like doing much of anything. I often find it difficult to do the normal every day tasks, let alone doing other things like writing or being social.

For those of you that might wonder, this is a big part of the reason why you might see me on here inconsistently or sporadically at times. Even with all the right people around and good things going on it can be difficult. When things aren't going all that well, it seems nearly impossible.

For all those that are fighting battles that no one else can see, keep on keeping on. Finding the light at the end of the journey only requires taking the first step, and then to keep on walking. One step at a time. One foot in front of the other. Anyone can take one step. Just one more step, and then another.